Hi God,
It seems that I am only coming to you when I am having problems with A, and I know that isn’t right. I don’t know why I am constantly being attacked by the Devil in ways I don’t even notice. It’s really hard and I don’t know why I’m being targeted so badly by him, please God, I need your protection from that because I am often very blind to the sneaky ways that he infiltrates my heart and my mind, I need your help discerning that.
In regards to A, I know that this is the same old story but a different time and I am stronger this go round. I don’t have to be afraid of him leaving me because I will be okay. I know that in my head and I know that I am strong enough to deal with this, yet again, but I am also sad. I don’t want to lose this man that I’ve spent the past 3 wonderful years with over some rough patch. God, why am I having such a difficult time letting go of it? I am trying to be strong and give him space, but I don’t know how to let go in my heart. I honestly just want to be pursued and wanted by my boyfriend, and if he can’t give me that then that is okay. I just pray that you have a man out there for me (whether or not it is A) who will do this without me telling him to. I love romance, as you know, and I would love to be romanced in real life like I have in the past by A.
God, please be with him and comfort him. I have no idea what is happening in his head or heart right now, and I am worried about him. I don’t want to see him fading away emotionally because he is an amazing man. I really believe that he deserves the best and I wish that he could see it too. I think the hard part about admitting that we both deserve people who want to be with us and who will help us grow and mature into who we are meant to be, but what if it isn’t with each other?
I am asking you to please calm my heart and give me strength and wisdom on what to do and say when I talk to him, whenever that happens to be. I’m afraid of losing him, but I know my world won’t be over if I do. I’ve seen people survive breakups before, regardless of how hard they are. And I have you on my side, right? Just please comfort both of us and help us to make the decision that is best for us, individually.
Lastly, God, I pray with all of my might that you will help A to be strong in who he is and actually go after what makes him happy, without the fear that someone might get hurt in the process. I hope that you are able to show him what would make him happy and fulfillment in life. He really does deserve it and I hope he can learn to believe that it is true. Please protect him from the Devil and his evil ways, protect his mind especially if he is feeling upset and tired these days.
I need your calm and strength right now, God.
Amen.
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